I haven’t tried yet and I don’t think I will

Luckily it was a few strands but it was annoying lol. I was even wearing a hat!

It Happened to Me: got my bhole length hair caught in some pottery on the wheel

Lol

Everyone I don’t like is a tankie

Get on it, bud!

I have a stunningly detailed memory bank I just don’t get to choose what goes in it 🥲

I don’t know if you read what I wrote but okay

We have lots of power, comrade - power to choose who we assemble and organize with. That’s how assholes in irl anarchist spaces are dealt with - choosing to not associate or work with someone who would do you or the community harm. (Don’t stretch this to mean I don’t work with people I don’t agree with 100% on everything, how and when you let people into your life can be appropriate for the situation - maybe I’ll show up to another groups event to help them with labour but won’t invite them to join in work I know they will just argue about for example).

The appeal to hierarchy is the joke here.

I’m listening to Ghosts I-IV in my headphones and sketching silly little guys for ideas for pottery decorations. It’s so nice and relaxing 😎

Being a gentleman scholar? Yes, I think so.

LMAO people on the internet are the worst (myself included 😅)

Literally salivating.

Look at those fancy knife skills! Amazing, looks so warm and tasty.

I weaponized my autism today to win that fight about the equipment not working (kind of?) but got some blast damage while I was at it.

If anyone had tips on how to be a stubborn, pedantic asshole without grinding your nervous system into a fine powder I am all ears?

In positive news I actually ate lunch! Go me!

I enjoyed this meme

Hey comrade, I read first reply that came up for me and got real pissed on your behalf so I’m going to reply without reading anything else. Sorry if this was already covered.

You’re not alone in not being able to express what’s wrong. It’s not your fault and people giving you shit for not being able to talk to a dr to figure out what’s wrong clearly haven’t experienced what it’s like and aren’t doing a very good job at being kind.

Idk if you are autistic but there are a few reasons why autistic people and other struggle with this:

• your nervous system ain’t right
• alexithymia
• issues with communication/being understood. If you browse this comm you will see many posts about it.

Bonus meme about alexithymia

I didn’t get diagnosed until I was 40. It’s AuDHD specifically. I was diagnosed and then “treatment resistant” to a whole bunch of shit from 13 till then including depression, Bipolar II rapid cycling, BPD, ADHD. Each time I was either involuntarily committed or most recently trying by absolute darndest to not end up in that position again. Every time is be compliant and take the meds and do the therapy and try my best and it just didn’t work???

The only reason I knew to pursue a diagnosis is my therapist being like…uh, you might want to maybe consider an autism assessment and the fact that I could afford it. It’s not fair and it sucks, homie, but I share this to get people who are talking out of their ass to shut the fuck up when they have no idea what they are talking about - making is sound like it’s super easy to figure out what’s wrong. It’s not.

The second thing I wanted to share is that I find myself in these awful spirals where I am sure I am a bad person. Like, because I have trouble relating to others I am somehow harming them by existing because I can’t communicate and empathize with them. Or I’m so burnt out I can’t do things for other people when they need help and that makes me basically a war criminal. Or even worse people need to pick up my slack??? I’ve been sobbing in therapy because I am sure I am a bad person and I don’t want to be.

I’m not sure I’ll ever totally shake that fear but my therapist shared the concept of open and closed systems to make me at least realize I am probably not a narcissist (look I know this is a can or worms but if everyone can just accept that I am not saying that problem who are diagnosed with NPD are necessarily bad people that would be cool). The important part here is that I was so scared that my prevention of self is so inaccurate that I am somehow harming people without realizing it and I’ll never be able to stop and now I think that’s probably not true?

Do you have access to a therapist or other mental health provider who has experience in either autism or psychopathy or both? My therapists have been able to adapt to how I communicate and receive information and have helped me express my issues and concerns and explained things in ways that make sense to me. Maybe you can find someone like that to help you navigate your concerns.

Good luck.

The safe space to be free from requests for labour?

It was not low effort to understand, but I got there comrade

No there isn’t

Oh god, I recently had a conflict about this. Records people are like, “we hear you have a room full of records, they are marked as past retention policy we are coming to shred them, please make sure someone is available to give us access”

We have one admin left and she fucking rules. She’s saved these from shredding before and she messages me panicked, saying they aren’t listening to her that they are still required etc. I’m getting ready to literally fite someone and my boss is like, “let’s just tell them we don’t have them anymore 🤷 I don’t feel like arguing with these people.” He rules.